Food and fatness

Trials and tribulations of an emotional eater (manifested as a big fat fatty).

  • Food and fatness

    Food as a form of…

    Self-harm. I know that today’s plate of beige mayonnaise covered shit is not good for me. Nutrients in the food are minimal, salt and fat are copious, and the authenticity of the ‘chicken’ in the nuggets is questionable. The humongous dollop of mayo foreshadows an impending heart attack, and to top it all off I accidentally spilled too much salt all over it (but will eat it all regardless). I would not say it tastes sublime, but the effort to taste ratio is favourable enough. I’ve started to wonder if consuming this type of ‘meal’ almost daily is a form of self-harm, a way of punishing myself for pushing my…

  • Food and fatness

    Emotional eating alert

    I am an emotional eater, an overeater, a binge eater, food addict and general greedy guts. Morbidly obese (I might actually be super morbidly obese which is quite something) at 5ft 2ins and a size 24, I can’t even see myself anymore. But I think that is the aim actually, to be invisible, which seems ironic given how much space I now take up. I’ve written about my half-hearted attempt to lose weight in my previous blog, Finally Stuffed, and detailed my struggle to overcome emotional eating (which predictably ended in no actual action on my part to make the weight loss occur). What is emotional eating? For me, emotional…